January

I'm a little behind so it is 5 a.m. and I am going to try and catch up. This was a great month. We had a lot of showings because our house is still on the market, we have to get a contract on our house by February 20th, to still obtain the new house. Tony and I go back and forth all the time about the whole moving situation. We have a very happy life now where we are but know in the future it will not suite our family's needs. I know we will be happy wherever we go and that sometimes you have to risk to get better. Leaving comfort is always hard.

Anthony - Anthony loves loves loves school. It makes me so happy to hear him say how excited he is for school or that he can't wait until he gets to school. I told his teachers that they are doing a wonderful job and how happy I am to hear his excitement about school. He is really happy and takes time often to help sister and kiss his brother on his head. I am amazed at how much he's came out of his shell. I don't know if it's school or if it's because I'm home with him now. He thinks he's good at everything now. I told him that grandpa Rudy sounds like Elvis because we were listening to a Elvis song on the radio. He said "Mom am I good singer?" I said I don't know I don't hear you sing a lot. Well he started singing and it was really cute he said I'm a good singer like grandpa Rudy huh. He's became very inquisitive, the questions go on and on about everything it really reminds me of me when I was little, actually it still reminds me of me now.

Avabelle - Ava loves going to school for an hour and a half on Mondays. She is so happy and I love to be around her. She loves entertaining Louie and can't help herself to always touch him when she walks by him. She sings and combines the words of a song with her thoughts. It's always very interesting to hear what will come out of her mouth. She was singing a country song while we were walking in Target. She's behind me and I hear "I want to kiss a girl I want to hold her tight" I kept laughing as that kept coming out of her mouth over and over.

Louie - Louie is doing wonderful. He has been sitting up for a month now and does the army crawl in a circle. Now that he can sit up and play with things he loves it and can entertain himself for awhile. He still smiles all the time and waits for dad to look at him all the time and squeals with delight. He's still sleeping with us and is very attached to him mom. I love him so much my baby boy.

Tony and I - Tony and I have been dissecting the move all the time with are we making the right move. The biggest thing we have a hard time with is how small the yard is. Tony wants a garden and a play yard for the kids. We discuss it daily and still have not come to any conclusion. I just want Tony and the kids to be happy. If they are happy then I will be happy. I turned down a job share for next year. Tony said that the kids are still too little and daycare would be too pricy. The home budget will get tighter but I'll do whatever I have to do for our family. I am just very grateful that I have been able to stay home with them and watch how quickly they're growing, and not miss a thing. There will come a day when mom wont' be cool anymore.